Thursday, November 20, 2014

God's Little Gifts

Today I has received many little surprises. It looks like I am happier and more open and therefore I am receiving many gifts from my children and my friends.
  I decided to treat myself to a Starbucks coffee. When I was at the window I met the young man who serve me and his name is Elijah. For some reason there was a mistake with my Starbucks card and I got a free coffee and banana nut bread.
So between the free coffee and banana nut bread, I felt very happy and in good spirits. So on my way home I played an old CD by Mel Torme. I was a happy gal all the way home.
Elijah was a sweet surprise because during the brief conversation at the Starbucks window we made a deal.  He'll learn to compose stories a day I am to learn to compose music.  It so happens that I love music.
Whether or not I learn to compose,  I am enchanted with the idea from a most perfect stranger. 

Tuesday, October 07, 2014

Looking Back and . . . . . . . .

I have reached out to friends through the usual social media and emails because I need to do something to shift the predictability of my life. I may proceed with my thoughts of moving to Tucson, but as a wise friend told me; I'd better be certain I am not acting frivolously. What can I do there that I can't do here? Will people be as busy with their own lives there as my folks have been busy with theirs here?

So I will take my time with that venture. In the meantime, I'll continue reading and restart the writings I've long left undone.

Interestingly, a colleague is working on a paper and I shared some material that may or may not be useful to him. However, I've started rethinking what my own project will be.

Somehow I don't feel as compelled to catch up and compete with others as before. I've accepted my abilities and do not feel impelled to do things out of my sphere of interest and abilities. I suppose this is a measure of some growth.

Now on to my task for today and I'll see what I get done.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Changes in the Air

Today I filled out the health care directives forms that the medical group wanted me to take care of. The thought of dying is not pleasant except for the fact that I won;t feel anything. Being human requires a certain amount of feeling, caring, concern for others, sometimes even empathizing too much. So that one person's pain blends into your own.

Now that I've taken the steps I have taken, I feel less burdened. I am also planning to move to a place where I still have friends and can enjoy their company as well as the surroundings of the area. No longer will I tie myself to other people's needs over my own.

I'm only curious about how long it'll take me to execute my plans. Will be throwing away lots of things soon.

After I end this bit of writing, I think I'll read myself to sleep. It is getting late. LOL  Before now I'd stay up until 2 a.m. Now I really watch to get my "beauty" sleep.

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

New Trials and Opportunities for Growth

Some people jump to conclusions and in the process create sorrow for themselves and for others.

I will be specific at another time. However,  practicing some steps from religious training,  I am growing through the event. I find that even when people are related to one, one need not retaliate or create more drama in each of our lives.

Thursday, February 27, 2014

Things Astronomical

I love what near telescopes show us about the Universe. See story below.

Jackpot! NASA's Kepler telescope finds 'mother lode' of 715 planets,0,2151798.story#axzz2uJGFWb97

Wednesday, February 26, 2014

New Vision Life

Two days ago I under went my first cataract surgery.  I am thrilled with the result. I cannot tout my excellent experience and outcome sufficiently.  Things I see with my left eye are clearer brighter and this makes me think.

How much of our physical vision influences our view of life, culture,  or politics?

Thursday, February 20, 2014

Happy Encounters

Living alone, I frequently feel sad. To overcome the sadness, I go out and look for human conversation or interaction. Thus, I get to meet new people, interact with them and at the same time, lift my spirits.

Today I met three people and two dogs. Yea for me. I love animals and they usually like me. So to get this narrative back on track. The first encounter was with a neighbor I'd not met previously. His name is Zach and I was happy to meet him because he was with a dog who had grabbed my attention with his cute face whenever I went to my car. It turns out that the dog was a beautiful American Bull Dog whose name is Kingston. He came to me as if we'd been long time friends. I explained to his owner that I normally lifted my head to talk to him as I either entered or got out of my car.  Kingston, I explained to his owner, grabbed my attention because he was alone and I thought sad looking. (Talk about projection of human characteristics on animals.) Zach explained he was away a lot because he worked many long hours.

This first encounter brightened my mood, and I proceeded to cheat on my diet by stopping at a local McDonalds. The woman at the window was cheery and pleasant. She prognosticated that my day would be wonderful. I agreed and off I went.

As I arrived at the medical center, I saw one of the pharmacists who had gone out to meet a puppy. The puppy is all of 12 weeks and the friendliest pit bull pup I'd ever met. Did not get to know his name but gray with white paw markings is lovely.

I was so energized by these simple encounters that I cleaned up and took care of my business once I'd picked up my medicines.

People and Pups are a great replacement for solitude and sorrow.

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Changes That Are Not New

I am officially Old. Another birthday and yet I am still alert and curious about most subjects.  One thing I am enjoying again  C is going out on the road zooming along with others. I may not have the same destinations as the fellow drivers,  but I may derive greater pleasure than they might. The sound of tires on a well maintained road, or the bright sun and feel of air on my skin. These small sensory events renewed me today.

I wrote the preceding  entry or post on a day filled with energy.  We've had winter in the Phoenix area and having been born in NYC during a February Blizzard, I felt invigorated and happy. Despite my reading the ever thoughtful poetry of Billy Collins,"The First Night" and William Wordsworth "Ode: Intimations of Immortality,  I felt the beauty of the words inspire me about the long read still ahead for me.

I'd dallied with my failures but thought that those thoughts would not keep me happy. So I pondered the words o Pema Chodron whose words put me at ease and help quiet or still my mind.